Mike called

My ex-boyfriend Mike called last night. I haven't talked to him in about 6 months. It was really nice to hear his Southern accent. He asked me if I was dating and I was pretty honest about it but gave the edited version. I don't feel like dating right now because I don't feel sexy or desirable in any way. I made a joke about how when he and Andy left town, they broke me. Well let's see... between Sept of last year and when they left I had gained 35 pounds. From the time they left until now I'm up 15 more. So that statement wasn't correct as it pertains to my weight. My emotions maybe but I guess my weight gain is really my own damn fault.