Dreaded Scale

Day 4 of this stall I seem to be in. Time for more protein and water and to start exercising. This weekend I will do good on all fronts and I will weigh in on Monday to see where I am at. I really think I need to stay off the scale more than I am..it's slowly driving me insane. I thought the weight would be flying off of me, but it isn't. This is the longest stall I've had so far. Most days I weigh the same two days in a row, then show a loss. Not right now and it's greatly affecting my mood. Someone had work yesterday said to me "when was the last time you lost 30 pounds in 6 weeks?" so yes, I should be happy and I am, I just want more. I feel like I'm killing myself - feeling sick all the time, just plain not feeling well, feeling like I'm swallowing razor blades when i eat or drink - for no progress on the scale. Some people have these stalls go on for weeks!

Stalled?

How do you know when you are stalled when you are actually in it? How many days must you see the same number on the scale to make it a stall? This is day 3 of seeing 299.8. Yes I am happy that I am down 29.4 pounds since surgery 6 weeks ago. Yes I am happy that I hit twoterville this week. But shouldn't I be losing at a faster clip than I am?

Eating and drinking both make me feel sick to my stomach. Every single swallow hurts my belly. I know I am not taking in the needed protein numbers. I had a shake today to get that up a little bit. And I know my numbers for water are not good. Although I feel thirsty, it hurts to drink and I've lost my love of water. I guess I have no other choice other than to become even more in tune with "my numbers" than just my weight. I am going to have to start tracking protein and water. And maybe calories as well. I know they say if your calories drop too much, you stall. Is this where I am at? I can't wait to start seeing some bigger numbers. I really wanted to hit 40 pounds off in 8 weeks but that is looking like an impossibility. What to do ...what to do...

No tomatoes for me

Oh man I feel sick. 6 weeks now since surgery and today was the first day that I threw up at work. Let's see its about 3 days now since I hurled into an empty bag while driving. And I was so darn excited to be eating my own caprese salad made with mozzerella, tomatoes, and fresh basil. I ate at my desk and fought it off for a good 20 minutes or so before deciding to go outside and puke behind a bush. But I didn't make it that far. I belined for the restroom and waited until I was alone so I could throw up in peace and quiet. It felt like someone squeezed a tomato in my throat as I felt every seed and piece of skin come up. About 4 good heaves later and I was done. I think it was the skins. They were bothering me as I was eating them and yesterday with some grapes as well. Oh well, I shall try it again in a month.

Twoterville today

Today my weight dropped below 300 el.bees. I'm so happy that finally happened for me. I walked about a mile on Sat after I bought some spanking brand new running shoes. They were spiffy and left a spiffy blister on my poor foot. They went back to the store on Sunday where I returned the one pair and left with two. Go figure. Hopefully one of these pairs works out better for me. It's time to start walking. Last night I told myself I was too tired to go for that 30minute walk.



I felt like I could have cried when I stepped off that scale this morning. Finally. Progress. I haven't been this weight since around last July so this is a very good thing.


Also, this is was my Andy mourning weight. At 300 was the weight I was at the last time I was with him. I was so sad over the past year and eating made me feel better. Not really but it helped to pass the lonely time. Now my Andy mourning weight is off and I can concentrate on the next 10 pounds which is my art show weight. Last July I weighed 290 for my art show. I want to get this off in the next two weeks so that my 2 month post-surgery weight loss will be 40 el.bees. Wish me luck!