Jean's boots

I have this friend that has been losing weight for months now. She looks fantastic. Of course she says a lot of things about being fat and her fat clothes etc...Makes me irritated as I have 100 pounds on her. Who is she to complain and bitch? But I digress.

She was feeling down this weekend and wanted to do something to make herself feel better. She had the idea of buying this high boots and wearing them with a skirt that would make her look and feel good. I thought it was rather conceited until I remembered that I have one of those outfits in my closet too. It's a black leather skirt in a size 22 or so and a blue/black coresetted top. I need to be around 260 in order to pull that outfit off. Maybe we aren't so different after all.

Mike called

My ex-boyfriend Mike called last night. I haven't talked to him in about 6 months. It was really nice to hear his Southern accent. He asked me if I was dating and I was pretty honest about it but gave the edited version. I don't feel like dating right now because I don't feel sexy or desirable in any way. I made a joke about how when he and Andy left town, they broke me. Well let's see... between Sept of last year and when they left I had gained 35 pounds. From the time they left until now I'm up 15 more. So that statement wasn't correct as it pertains to my weight. My emotions maybe but I guess my weight gain is really my own damn fault.