Is cyber stalking illegal?

I've got the biggest crush on a guy at work. He's 85% what I consider "attractive qualities" be it physical or other with the other 15% unknown to me. I don't know him well and we are in different buildings so I don't get the chance to embarrass myself very often. Thank goodness. i turn into a 13 year old giggly as all when I just think about him. He's a badboy and a smartass and I know that my shy, quiet hard-working self has little to no chance of getting with this guy. Nevermind the extra 140 pounds that chips away at my self confidence every day.

As motivation, I printed out some photos of him (from our office) and stuck them next to my workout equipment, on my computer, by my phone, to remind me that if I want to be with a guy like this, I need to get the weight off. More than the weight, I need my confidence to go up. He's so sexy. It would creep me out to find my picture in someones home on their refrigerator...but I put them where my food triggers are. The fridge, the equipment, the phone to call for take out, same for the computer. Looking into the brown eyes may help.

I also did the same thing with chicks with perfect boobs. See I want a boob job when the weight comes off. So there's pictures of him as well as half naked chicks in my apt. Its motivation and it doesn't hurt to look at someone you think is completely dropdead handsome.

Listen to me rationalizing it...

Cinco De Mayo measurements

I'm a 26/28 right now. This weekend I bought a 5x t-shirt which is more than roomy, I could do 4x and look good. I want to get to where an XL is roomy.

Today I weighed in at 278.8 pounds. Heavy weight.

Bust 47.5
Midriff --the part I just dispise 53
Waist 48
Hips 59

I guess that makes me a pear, or maybe an avacado.
I'm tired but I need to get on the elliptical or I won't do it.

Today's Tally 5-1

I feel hungry I guess. Thirsty more than anything. 9-11pm is my rough time of the day. Boredom sets in and since I live alone, eating gives me company and something to do. I'm about to have some chocolate milk, a glass of water with lemon, and my evening pills. I'm beat today. Here's the tally.

Also I worked out 15 min on the elliptical, did 5 of some infomercial piece of equipment and I'm about to take out the trash so the roaches don't feast tonight. I hate roaches. It may not be a lot of working out, but its a start. I can't expect an hour of cardio right now - I'm so out of shape, just doing something every day will be good for right now.

I am using LiveStrong to document my eats..and at a desired pace of wanting to lose 3.5 lbs per week, that gives me something like 1368 per day. If I can keep from eating tonight, I will be right at that target caloric intake.

Burger King Cheeseburger	1.00	340	16g	45mg	780mg	31g	6g	1g	18g	x
	^ Servings consumed: Serving size: 1 Burger (133g) Optional: When did you eat this? - select mealtime - breakfast morning snack lunch afternoon snack dinner evening snack midnight snack pre-workout post-workout Unclassified or more specifically -- 12am 1am 2am 3am 4am 5am 6am 7am 8am 9am 10am 11am 12pm 1pm 2pm 3pm 4pm 5pm 6pm 7pm 8pm 9pm 10pm 11pm
Burger King BK (TM) Fresh Apple Fries with Carmel Sauce	1.00	70	1g	0mg	35mg	16g	10g	1g	0g	x
	^ Servings consumed: Serving size: 71g Optional: When did you eat this? - select mealtime - breakfast morning snack lunch afternoon snack dinner evening snack midnight snack pre-workout post-workout Unclassified or more specifically -- 12am 1am 2am 3am 4am 5am 6am 7am 8am 9am 10am 11am 12pm 1pm 2pm 3pm 4pm 5pm 6pm 7pm 8pm 9pm 10pm 11pm
Burger King 1% Chocolate Milk (8 oz)	1.00	180	3g	10mg	140mg	31g	29g	1g	9g	x
	^ Servings consumed: Serving size: 244 (g) Optional: When did you eat this? - select mealtime - breakfast morning snack lunch afternoon snack dinner evening snack midnight snack pre-workout post-workout Unclassified or more specifically -- 12am 1am 2am 3am 4am 5am 6am 7am 8am 9am 10am 11am 12pm 1pm 2pm 3pm 4pm 5pm 6pm 7pm 8pm 9pm 10pm 11pm
V8 V8	1.00	70	0g	0mg	690mg	13g	11g	3g	3g	x
	^ Servings consumed: Serving size: 11.5 floz (1can) Optional: When did you eat this? - select mealtime - breakfast morning snack lunch afternoon snack dinner evening snack midnight snack pre-workout post-workout Unclassified or more specifically -- 12am 1am 2am 3am 4am 5am 6am 7am 8am 9am 10am 11am 12pm 1pm 2pm 3pm 4pm 5pm 6pm 7pm 8pm 9pm 10pm 11pm
Lone Elm String Cheese	1.00	80	5g	15mg	200mg	1g	0g	0g	8g	x
	^ Servings consumed: Serving size: 1 piece (28g) Optional: When did you eat this? - select mealtime - breakfast morning snack lunch afternoon snack dinner evening snack midnight snack pre-workout post-workout Unclassified or more specifically -- 12am 1am 2am 3am 4am 5am 6am 7am 8am 9am 10am 11am 12pm 1pm 2pm 3pm 4pm 5pm 6pm 7pm 8pm 9pm 10pm 11pm
Cheddar Cheese	1.00	113	9g	29mg	174mg	0g	0g	0g	7g	x
	^ Servings consumed: Serving size: 1 slice (1oz) (28g) Optional: When did you eat this? - select mealtime - breakfast morning snack lunch afternoon snack dinner evening snack midnight snack pre-workout post-workout Unclassified or more specifically -- 12am 1am 2am 3am 4am 5am 6am 7am 8am 9am 10am 11am 12pm 1pm 2pm 3pm 4pm 5pm 6pm 7pm 8pm 9pm 10pm 11pm
Low Fat Chilli	1.00	110	2g	0mg	0mg	20g	0g	0g	5g	x
	^ Servings consumed: Serving size: 2 cups Optional: When did you eat this? - select mealtime - breakfast morning snack lunch afternoon snack dinner evening snack midnight snack pre-workout post-workout Unclassified or more specifically -- 12am 1am 2am 3am 4am 5am 6am 7am 8am 9am 10am 11am 12pm 1pm 2pm 3pm 4pm 5pm 6pm 7pm 8pm 9pm 10pm 11pm
Signature Parmesean Cheese	1.00	90	6g	20mg	260mg	0g	0g	0g	9g	x
	^ Servings consumed: Serving size: 1 oz. Optional: When did you eat this? - select mealtime - breakfast morning snack lunch afternoon snack dinner evening snack midnight snack pre-workout post-workout Unclassified or more specifically -- 12am 1am 2am 3am 4am 5am 6am 7am 8am 9am 10am 11am 12pm 1pm 2pm 3pm 4pm 5pm 6pm 7pm 8pm 9pm 10pm 11pm
Asparagus	1.00	27	0g	0mg	3mg	5g	3g	3g	3g	x
	^ Total consumed: servings cups tablespoons teaspoons Serving size: 10 stalks/1 cup (134 grams) Optional: When did you eat this? - select mealtime - breakfast morning snack lunch afternoon snack dinner evening snack midnight snack pre-workout post-workout Unclassified or more specifically -- 12am 1am 2am 3am 4am 5am 6am 7am 8am 9am 10am 11am 12pm 1pm 2pm 3pm 4pm 5pm 6pm 7pm 8pm 9pm 10pm 11pm
Mushrooms	2.00	30	0g	0mg	6mg	5g	3g	2g	4g	x
	^ Total consumed: servings cups tablespoons teaspoons Serving size: 1 cup, pieces or slices (70.0 g) Optional: When did you eat this? - select mealtime - breakfast morning snack lunch afternoon snack dinner evening snack midnight snack pre-workout post-workout Unclassified or more specifically -- 12am 1am 2am 3am 4am 5am 6am 7am 8am 9am 10am 11am 12pm 1pm 2pm 3pm 4pm 5pm 6pm 7pm 8pm 9pm 10pm 11pm
HEB Low Fat Chocolate Milk	1.00	170	3g	10mg	125mg	28g	26g	0g	8g	x
	^ Servings consumed: Serving size: 1 cup Optional: When did you eat this? - select mealtime - breakfast morning snack lunch afternoon snack dinner evening snack midnight snack pre-workout post-workout Unclassified or more specifically -- 12am 1am 2am 3am 4am 5am 6am 7am 8am 9am 10am 11am 12pm 1pm 2pm 3pm 4pm 5pm 6pm 7pm 8pm 9pm 10pm 11pm
Pastachios	0.50	80	7g	0mg	0mg	4g	1g	0g	3g	x
	^ Servings consumed: Serving size: 1 ounce 28 grams about 1/4 cup Optional: When did you eat this? - select mealtime - breakfast morning snack lunch afternoon snack dinner evening snack midnight snack pre-workout post-workout Unclassified or more specifically -- 12am 1am 2am 3am 4am 5am 6am 7am 8am 9am 10am 11am 12pm 1pm 2pm 3pm 4pm 5pm 6pm 7pm 8pm 9pm 10pm 11pm