Feeling bad

Stepped on the scale today and my weight is up by about 3 pounds. Where did that come from? I guess maybe I've been grazing too much. No more of that. I bought these awesome new (red) small salad plates with a Japanese motiff and i'm going to use those from now on as my official dinner plate. If its not on that plate, it doesn't get ate...

Also I've been hitting the carbs pretty hard for the last week. Time to put an end to that.


I really need to start tracking my water. I know I'm dehydrated. The lump in my throat makes it not fun to swallow but I have to do better on this front.

I showered last night and couldn't believe the amount of hair that came from my head. It's so alarming. You can't tell yet on me but still it is very concerning and makes one feel bad even though it was expected. I am having a very rough day today.

Re..Re. Reguritation

Talk about head hunger. I think I really noticed it last night. I was so hungry and am so sick of what I have recently been eating that I decided to order out. I purchased A LOT of food last night. I knew I'd only be able to have a single bite of each thing I ordered (buffalo shrimp, mashed potatoes, pasta, fried cheese/brocolli bites) but old habits kicked in and I ordered what I wanted. I didn't even make it to opening the pasta as I threw up three times last night. I would eat, throw up, eat some more, throw up...three times. WTH is wrong with me.

Today I did better so far. I had a few of the shrimp this morning and didn't throw up. I've been seriously craving a really great tuna sandwich recently so I ran out to pita pit at lunch. On the way back to work I had 3 or maybe 4 normal bites and then put the rest of the thing in the fridge at work. So far so good. No throwing up.

Bad me I also bought a diet coke. I know, no carbonated beverages, but I wanted one so I did it. I have yet to drink it.

Upcoming endoscopy

So I am having some complications apparently. I just figured these things were part of the process, but my Dr. thinks that at 7 weeks post-op RYN, I shouldn't be having these problems. My biggest compliant is this feeling like I have a golf ball in the back of my throat. It doesn't hurt but it is annoying and it causes me to not want to eat or drink anything. It's just a constant lump. I remember having this feeling before when I had a hiatial hernia - which somehow just went away at some point in my life.

Also, I have this pain whenever I eat or drink anything..it feels like when it hits my pouch, that I have just swallowed a handful of razorblades. It's so uncomfortable. It definately helps with curbing the appetite. So endoscopy here I come..June 13. I hope my insurance covers this.