Unwilling

So I've had some swallowing issues for about 2 weeks. I had lap band surgery a year and a half ago ...gained 40 pounds after the surgery, and have now lost around 30 of that. But 2 weeks ago I started having this feeling like I couldn't swallow anything but liquid. I was unable to control when I swallowed, so food would slip down my throat leaving me with a feeling like I was about to choke. Since I was on vacation, I couldn't do much about it. I started eating ice cream and soups. And put on a few in the meantime.

Today I saw my surgeon who believes my band has slipped. He sucked out all the fluid and I am now on a strict diet for 3 weeks. NOTHING but protein drinks. Now this sucks because my birthday was yesterday. Of course the nurse was yelling at me for not being more active in the whole "community" and such - I expected that. What really sucks is that I was self-pay. I shelled out $16,000 for the surgery. What happens if it has slipped and this diet doesn't correct the placement? Will insurance cover a second surgery? It is worrisome. It's going to be a long 3 weeks.

Ohh the title of my post? The nurse wrote "unwilling" on my chart when she had asked me about drinking and eating at the same time. Of course that really is the bottom line to why the surgery hasn't been successful..when I saw that I thought "isn't there a better way to more accurate summarize this than 'unwilling'?" and then I couldn't find one. It's true. I have been unwilling to correct that habbit.