Bundle of Nerves

I am a bundle of nerves about tonight. Last time it took about 2 months to get the surgery date but I seem to remember that being a bit of a fluke with the holidays. No one wanted their surgery the day before thanksgiving except me. So anyhow, I am nervous about showing up tonight and feeling bad about my failed attempts for 3 years. But I have to go. I wish there was someone that would go with me but I don't have anyone here that I'd ask to do that. ....Wish me luck.